I was going to blog my thoughts my next course, however there is a really big thing in my life that I cannot ignore.
Every day my mother is in my thoughts. I jump every time the telephone rings and panic at an unexpected knock on my door.
Until December 2010 I rarely discussed my mother with anyone except Mr Minty and a few select friends. On the 7th December she suffered a grand-mal seizure from which she has never recovered. Multiple Sclerosis has stolen my mother and I resent it.
By saying this I have stepped over my biggest barrier. Now I have to accept it is real and is happening. I may not change the past so I must prepare for my future.
I want people to know that my mother is dying. Many have suffered the loss of a loved one and I do not claim that my pain is any worse. I just hope that the next time you see a miserable face, ask yourself why. Give them an encouraging smile as you walk by. It may just help. x