Now the children are back at school, I have to think about going back to University.
In each module I have done so far, I have had a ‘ah, right’ moment, where it suddenly makes sense. My illness meant that during the last two modules I did each assignment without a clear idea of what the point was. I did learn to structure an essay, but it had no clear conclusion which my results reflect.
This time I will be doing it properly. I have already started reading the first study book for A230, ‘The Renaissance and Long Eighteenth Century.’ I’m surprised that within the first couple of chapters I am getting the ‘ah, right’ feeling. I am able to read Shakespeare’s ‘Othello’ and understand the context in which it was written. It is like before I had a page with many dots on it, but I did not know how to put it together. Now I have all the dots and their numbers, so I can draw the lines between them and see the bigger picture.
I am feeling a great deal better. I am thinking clearer, my symptoms of anxiety have eased and I am sleeping better. I probably still spend far too much time on my own, but strangely I feel like I don’t get enough.
Later this month I will be watching ‘Othello’ through with N T Live, which considering I have got to know the play so well, I am ridiculously excited about. I may even attempt to do a review on it.